Saturday, 24 December 2011

Happy Christmas 2011!

I don't celebrate Christmas but I hope all you guys have a happy and merry Christmas!

I'm ill again and so will be spending my whole day in bed while contemplating my potentially impending doom (surgery).

But I hope you guys are happy and making lots of awesome memories!

Kamille

Wednesday, 21 December 2011

Hidradenitis Suppurativa

I probably spelt that wrong. Oh well.

So anyone who reads this blog on a regular basis will have picked up on the fact that there haven't been many posts recently. It wasn't so much as my laziness that explains it but the fact that I've been ill and the title explains it. And the the post will explain this.

I haven't been officially diagnosed yet but that is what the doctors suspect I have. It's a disease that results in chronic and recurring boils under the skin that progresses and is quite painful. It tends to flare up at time and since November, I've been getting them pretty bad. And with a busy college schedule, this blog has had to take a back seat.

I started getting these boils soon after I got my first period and found myself getting new ones as time went on. Most of them would vanish after a week or two and some of them would burst and leak pus and blood. Fortunately, that stuff doesn't smell bad so I know it isn't an infection.

I've gone through some pretty awful flare ups over time and it's very painful but doctors seem to be reluctant to give me painkillers. They assume paracetamol will do the trick but it doesn't. I've been in so much pain at times that I've seriously wanted to just die.

It's incurable and difficult to treat. Surgery helps get rid of them in some areas but they can come back which sucks.

I won't specify where I get them but they have pretty much ruined my life and I often have to cancel events and stuff because I can't get out of bed.

I hope that there will be a cure one day but if there isn't then I just hope that I can soon find respite. And since it can be passed on to children, I think I'll be adopting. There isn't anything wrong with adopting and I will adopt some children but I only worry that I may get pregnant one day and since I don't believe in abortion unless in extreme scenarios, I worry that I may cause pain to my future child.

But for now, I guess I have to just deal with it. It also means I get to read a lot since I'm stuck at home for a few days every month or two.

But yeah, this is why I've not updated. It's not that I've forgotten.

To add to my health problems though, I've just found a bump like a balloon on my back. 2011 has not been a good year for me has it?

Friday, 2 December 2011

My Life As A Psychic

The woman on the train is staring at the ground. She's thinking: I need to remind the neighbours to keep their dog quiet.

The girl on the swings in the park is looking at the sky. She's thinking:  Why aren't the clouds shiny?

The woman at the till in the supermarket is thinking: These coupons are making my life a misery!

The man standing at the bus stop is thinking: I should have woken up earlier.

I'm not actually psychic but sometimes I just like to wonder what people are thinking. And then I wonder if people are trying to think about what I'm thinking. We can't read peoples' minds but we can certainly look at their faces and listen to them speak and sometimes that's enough.

I know that sometimes I've wished someone could see that I was in pain and help me without me having to tell them so I now make sure I pay attention to everyone.

So if you ever see somebody with a sad face or a miserable voice, ask them what's wrong.

Kamille